After being in Building C for eight weeks now, it was inevitable that couples would begin to form. And being that I was generally oblivious to this sort of thing, I’m sure there was probably more going on than the two obvious couples I knew about. And, sadly, as usual, I was not a part of any of these couples.
It was a Saturday night, and I saw one of those couples, Pat Hart and Karen Francis, at the dining commons. Pat was tall and athletic, with blond hair and a stereotypical golden-boy appearance. Karen was short and sassy, with brown hair and eyes and an occasional hint of Southern mannerisms, because she had spent the first half of her life in Georgia. She was younger than the rest of us, since she had finished high school early. But I didn’t know if any of that made Pat and Karen a typical couple, or an unlikely pairing, or what, because I knew nothing of relationships and was oblivious to a lot of things.
Pat and Karen sat at a table with Mike, Keith, and a girl named Gina Stalteri who lived next to Mike on the third floor. Two other people who did not live in Building C were with them as well; one was Pat’s twin brother, Nate, but I did not recognize the other one. There was one empty chair at the table; I approached and asked if I could sit there. They looked like they were almost done eating, so I might have the table to myself eventually.
“Go for it,” Mike said.
I sat quietly eating and listened to their conversation. “We’re gonna have to take two cars there,” Pat said. “It’s too far to walk. Can anyone else drive?”
“I will,” Mike offered. “Where did you say he lives?”
“An apartment in north Jeromeville, on the corner of Andrews and Alvarez. Las Casas Apartments, he said it was called.”
“‘Las Casas.’ That’s kind of a dumb name. It means ‘The Houses.’”
“That’s kind of like one time, I was visiting my relatives in Bidwell,” I said, “and we went to this Mexican restaurant called ‘La Comida.’” Everyone laughed, except Karen.
“What does ‘La Comida’ mean?” Karen asked. “I took French in high school, not Spanish.”
“‘The Food!’” shouted Mike.
“There’s actually a restaurant called ‘The Food?’” Gina asked.
“It’s real,” Keith said. “I’ve been there. My sister went to Bidwell State.”
“We should probably get going,” Pat said. “You guys ready?” The others nodded and answered in the affirmative. “Greg? You want to come with us?” Pat asked.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“My friend from back home, he’s a senior, he’s having a party at his apartment. I’m sure he’d be ok with more people showing up.”
A party off campus was probably not my scene. It was probably going to be loud, with lots of drinking. But maybe I needed to get out of the dorm for a night. “Maybe,” I said. “I was going to get stuff done tonight.”
“Just show up if you decide to. It’s at Las Casas Apartments, number 109. Somewhere near Andrews Road and Alvarez Avenue,” he said. “Sorry I can’t give better directions. That’s what my friend told me”
“Greg will be able to find it,” Mike said. “He’s good with maps and directions, remember?”
I chuckled. “For sure,” I said.
“Bye, Greg!” Gina said as the seven of them began picking up their food trays.
“Maybe we’ll see you there?” Pat asked.
I got back to my room around fifteen minutes later. I really didn’t want to go to that party. I didn’t hang around with partiers growing up. If anything, the mere existence of these kind of parties made me angry that everyone else seemed to know how to get alcohol when younger than the legal drinking age, except for me, and that there were no consequences for these lawbreakers. And yet, I had no desire to drink; I had seen and heard about too many lives ruined by alcohol.
I didn’t have any other plans tonight. This was the last week of football season, and it was an away game, so there was no game to go to. I had a very small TV in my dorm room; I got six channels from its antenna, four of them came in fuzzy, and none of them was showing anything good on a Saturday night.
I got on the computer. I checked my email; I had a message from a girl in Wisconsin whom I had met in an IRC chat a couple weeks earlier. I wrote her back, nothing too important, just telling her about my day and answering some questions she had about what classes I was in and what UJ was like.
I got on IRC next. Nothing exciting was going on in my usual chat room, nor did anyone I knew appear to be on. I tried unsuccessfully to talk to a few people over the course of about fifteen minutes, after which I gave up and signed off.
I went to the bathroom. I walked all the way up and down the second floor. It was quiet. The only door that was open was Pat and Charlie’s room, and it was only open a crack. I poked my head in the door to say hi, and Charlie told me that he had a huge paper to write by Monday, and he was thankful that Pat was gone for the night, so he could have the room to himself. I figured he probably didn’t want to be bothered.
I went back to my room and played a few games of Tetris on the computer. After I got bored with that, I walked down to the first floor. The common room was empty, and the only person I saw was Phuong, who was also busy writing a term paper.
I walked up to the third floor and thought about how lifeless Building C was tonight. There weren’t many signs of life on the third floor either. When I got to the other end of the hallway, where the other staircase was, I saw the other Building C couple that I knew about: Liz Williams, thin with straight brown hair, who lived just down the hall from me, and tall, curly-haired Ramon Quintero, who lived in the room which he and Liz were just leaving when I saw them. They were holding hands as they approached the stairwell. “Hey, Greg,” Liz said. “What’s up?”
“Nothing. Just bored. What about you guys?”
“We’re going out to dinner,” Ramon said.
“Have fun!” I said.
“You too!” Liz smiled. “Hope you find something to do.”
“I’ll be fine.”
I walked back downstairs and down the hallway to my room. I tried reading the chapter I had to read by Monday for Rise and Fall of Empires, but I couldn’t concentrate. Something just felt discouraging about all these happy couples and drunken revelers out having fun, while I was here being bored.
I put the book down.
I got back on IRC. I messaged a girl in the room. “Hi! How are you?” I typed.
“Leave me alone, you ugly fat virgin,” she replied.
How did she know?
I signed off after about an hour of wasting time with nothing interesting happening. I checked my email again; no one had written.
I tried reading for pleasure for a while. I was currently working my way through all 1100-plus pages of Stephen King’s It. This had been one of my mom’s favorite books, and I borrowed it when I had been home three weeks earlier. Creepy book, but in a good way. That kept me occupied for about an hour, but I couldn’t become completely immersed in the story because I kept thinking about how I hated being lonely like this, and I wished I knew how to be more social.
Maybe I should have gone to that party at Las Casas Apartments after all. Maybe it’s not too late.
No, I don’t belong there. That’s not really where I want to be.
I went to the bathroom and walked up and down all three hallways again. Still nothing going on.
I went back to my computer and played a few more games of Tetris. By now, it was after ten o’clock, and I was starting to get tired. I tried going to sleep, but my mind was racing, and I couldn’t fall asleep. I kept thinking about Liz and Ramon, Pat and Karen, the party at Las Casas, all the cute girls I didn’t know how to talk to, and all my friends back home who had mostly abandoned me. The situation with my friends at home wasn’t all bad, though: Renee had finally gotten her email set up, so we had been back in touch for a couple weeks, and I had gotten a second letter from Melissa. However, that wasn’t going to help me tonight
I eventually decided to give up on trying to sleep for a while; the clock said 11:19. I was tired of being cooped up in this boring room. I put on the jeans I had been wearing earlier and my UJ hoodie, and I walked outside. I circled the entire South Residential Area, then came back toward the dining commons building.
The dining hall was on the second floor, and it was dark this time of night. The first floor entrance opened into a lounge with a pool table; no one was there. In fact, the whole building appeared to be empty. To the left of the room with the pool table, a door opened up into a study room and small sandwich and yogurt shop called Betsy’s. I had no idea who Betsy was, but her shop was closed this time of night. Behind the pool table, another door led to the mail room, and to the only place where I knew I would definitely find a conscious human being in this building.
The Resident Help Window was open all night, every night. One or two of the twenty-five resident advisors for this area would take turns staffing the window at night, so that residents would have a place to go for questions and concerns after hours, when the RAs in their own buildings would (theoretically) be sleeping. I walked through the door, looking down at the ground, into the space that contained the mailboxes and the Help Window. I had already checked my mail today, so in my mind, I was expecting to just peek up at the window and then leave after a few seconds, and if I got asked if I needed help, I would just mutter something about not being able to sleep. But instead, I heard a friendly “Hi, Greg!” coming from the Help Window.
I looked up. The RA on duty tonight was Megan McCauley from Building K. I met Megan a couple weeks ago, when I sat with some of the RAs at dinner and Megan gave me some tips for biking in the rain. Since then, I had seen her and said hi to her a couple of times around the dining hall. A textbook was open on the desk in front of her.
“Hey,” I said. “How are you?”
“I’m good. It’s a pretty slow night so far, so I’m studying for physics. This class is a lot of work.”
“9B. Are you going to have to take that? What’s your major?”
“I haven’t decided yet. Math and physics and chemistry were my favorite classes in high school, and they all need the Physics 9 series, so I’ll be taking it next year.”
“Sounds like you’ve at least narrowed down your potential majors to things that have a lot of the same freshman classes.”
“Yeah. What’s your major?”
“That sounds hard, but interesting.”
“Exactly! A lot of Chem-E majors don’t finish in four years without taking really heavy class loads. I’ve kind of accepted that I might need five years.”
“I feel like I need to hurry up and decide. Most of the people I know in my building know their majors already.”
“There’s nothing wrong with not having a major right away, but the sooner you decide, the sooner you can plan ahead, and you’ll be more likely to graduate on time.”
“Are you considering engineering at all?”
I paused. “I don’t know,” I said eventually. But in those few seconds of thinking, I realized something: I grew up very sheltered, in a mostly blue-collar part of the state. The true reason I hadn’t considered engineering as a major was because I really had no idea what an engineer was. But I didn’t say any of this to Megan. It was a little sad and embarrassing.
“It wouldn’t hurt to look into it. But engineering has different grad requirements, remember.”
“Are you going anywhere for Thanksgiving? Where are you from?”
“Plumdale. Near Gabilan and Santa Lucia. But I won’t be going home probably until Christmas. For Thanksgiving, my parents will be picking me up on the way to my grandpa’s house in Bidwell.”
“I love Santa Lucia! Growing up, we’d go there every summer to go to the beach. It’s so pretty there!”
“Yeah, it is. Where are you from?”
“Not far away. Oak Heights, just outside of Cap City. I can get home in half an hour if there’s no traffic.”
“Are you going home for Thanksgiving?”
“Yeah. Nothing too big. Just my family. And my great-aunt.”
“That’s nice. We used to have it at my great-grandma’s house. This is our first Thanksgiving without her. She was my last great-grandparent.”
“I’m sorry,” Megan said. “Were you close?”
“Kinda. We went to visit her twice a year, and we stayed at her house for a few days. She lived up in the hills outside of town. There were great views from her house. We’d go up there for Fourth of July, and from her front yard we’d be able to see two fireworks shows off in the distance.”
“That sounds nice!”
“It was.” I yawned.
“Getting tired?” Megan asked.
“Maybe I should go try to sleep.”
“I think that’s a good idea. I hope you’re able to sleep this time.”
“Me too,” I said. “And, hey, it was good talking to you.”
“It was good talking to you too!”
“Any time, Greg. You go get some sleep.” She smiled.
“Good night,” I said, awkwardly smiling back.
I walked back to Building C, swiped my ID card at the door, climbed the stairs, went to the bathroom, returned to room 221, and went back to bed, a little after midnight. As I drifted off to sleep, I kept thinking about what had happened tonight. Megan seemed really, really nice, at least from our few interactions so far. She was cute too, with her dark blonde hair slightly above shoulder length and pretty blue eyes. I usually like longer hair on girls, but that length worked on her. It seems like I think a lot of girls are cute, but in Megan’s case, talking to her didn’t really feel weird, like it did with some other girls. Was it bad that she was older? Could there be something there more than just friends? Could she ever see me that way, or was I just a silly freshman to her? I didn’t even know how much older she was, although I guessed it was probably just one year, since the Physics 9 series is usually taken in the spring of freshman year and first two quarters of sophomore year. Was I mature enough to date a sophomore? Of course, I was getting way ahead of myself, but these thoughts comforted me as I finally drifted off to sleep.
The resident advisors’ jobs were to help dorm residents with anything we might need, as well as to make sure that people were being quiet after eleven o’clock, and the Resident Help Window was open all night for any concerns we may need help with. Now that I think about it, I don’t remember if I ever actually used the Resident Help Window for its intended purpose. But sometimes, a friendly face and a listening ear were all the help I really needed.