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“Hey,” Eddie said as I walked into the De Anza house. Tonight was the season premiere of The X-Files, a weekly television drama combining elements of science fiction, conspiracy fiction, and horror. The show followed FBI agents Fox Mulder and Dana Scully, investigating cases dealing with the unexplained and the paranormal. Tonight was the beginning of the show’s seventh season, and the third season that this house had been hosting watch parties.
I suddenly heard shouts from the back of the house. I walked back to see what was going on. The guys who lived here had a foosball table, and Randy Smith and Robert A. Silver III, known to his friends as “3,” were playing against Andrew Bryant and Colin Bowman. Andrew and Colin had their pants down around their ankles, with their underwear showing; they looked a little embarrassed. “What just happened?” I asked Blake Lowry, who stood nearby watching.
“House rule. If you fall behind 7 to nothing, you have to drop your pants,” Blake explained. “And if you go down 10-nothing, you have to finish the game naked.” I rolled my eyes as Andrew and Colin scored a goal, sparing me the sight of having to see them naked.
I walked back to the front of the house to take my seat before The X-Files started. I noticed after a few seconds that everyone was staring at me. “What happened?” I asked.
Eddie pointed to the bottom of the stairs, where someone had placed the beat-up red armchair that was usually in front of the TV. “We moved your usual seat,” Eddie explained. “We wanted to see what you would do, if you’d sit over there in the red chair, or sit on the floor where your seat usually is. But you noticed something was up first.”
“Oh,” I said, slightly amused at the fact that this group thought enough of me and my usual seat to include me in their light-hearted prank. I picked up the chair and moved it back to where it usually was, next to where 3 had just joined Lacey Kilpatrick and Marlene Fallon on the floor after winning the foosball game. 3 definitely had the coolest nickname of all my friends.
“Hi, Greg!” Lacey whispered as the episode started on TV.
“Hi!” I whispered back quickly, not wanting to talk over the show.
The episode began with Scully in a tent in Africa, narrating in a voiceover as if she were writing a letter. As Scully spoke, I remembered what had happened at the end of the last season. A spaceship, covered with strange symbols, was found buried on a beach in Africa, and Mulder began having headaches and acting strangely after seeing the symbols. Scully was writing to Mulder, apparently. “In the source of every illness lies its cure,” she said.
“That’s deep,” I whispered to no one in particular. Lacey looked up at me and nodded, then scooted closer to me.
The episode continued, with strange things happening around Scully’s excavation of the spaceship. A local scientist warning her that her people believed these odd happenings to be bad omens. In the meantime, back in the United States, Mulder was hospitalized, unable to speak but able to write. He told Skinner, his supervisor, that he knew someone who would know what to do about his condition. The other man showed up and pointed out that Mulder’s brain activity indicated that he could now read minds. “Whoa,” 3 called out at that revelation.
A few minutes later, I felt Lacey change position, still sitting on the floor but now resting her back and head on my legs. I smiled nervously as Scully and a man she had been working with spoke of the symbols on the spacecraft being in the Navajo language, translating to passages from various religious texts and information about the human genome. I put my hands in my lap and made a conscious effort not to move my legs, not wanting to make Lacey uncomfortable and risk her moving away from me.
I could feel myself getting aroused, and I hoped that no one would notice. I was a Christian, I was not supposed to act on these feelings, and if anyone noticed, they might judge me and tell me how inappropriate that was, and ask me to stop coming over. I might get called a pervert, since Lacey was only nineteen and I was twenty-three. Was that too insurmountable of an age difference? Or they might tell everyone that I liked Lacey and people would tease me about it. Of course, that last scenario was a bit far-fetched, but I was still somewhat traumatized by something similar that happened to me in middle school. No, I told myself, I’m being ridiculous. Just enjoy this moment with Lacey leaning against my legs.
At the end of the episode, Scully had returned home, and a man she had been working with began to act strangely. He killed one of the locals, but somehow the dead man came back to life and killed the man who killed him. The African scientist returned to the tent with the police, only to find the spaceship gone. The words “to be continued” appeared on the screen, and everyone started clapping excitedly, anticipating next week’s episode.
“Wow,” Lacey said to me, shifting her position to face me. “What’d you think?”
“Interesting. With all the alien stuff that’s been on the show before, I don’t think they’ve ever connected aliens to the Bible and stuff like that.”
“I know! I don’t think I’ve seen them talk about that either.”
“I don’t believe aliens wrote the Bible, but it’s interesting to think about, in a fictional setting.”
“I see what you mean,” Lacey pondered. Then she asked me, “So what do you have planned this week?”
“Thursday is Veterans Day,” I said. “No school. I’m looking forward to that.”
“A day off, on a Thursday?”
“I always got the nearest Monday off when I was in school, but schools around here seem to get the actual day off on the 11th, no matter what day of the week it is. You don’t get a holiday at all, right?”
“Right! I want a day off this week!”
“I don’t know why that is. I always thought it was weird that Jeromeville didn’t get a day off. I asked someone at work why we take the 11th in the middle of the week, and he said, ‘This is a military community. We remember veterans on November 11.’”
“Oh, yeah, that’s right. Your school is near the Air Force base. Is there some significance to that date? I don’t remember.”
“It’s the anniversary of the end of World War I.”
“Oh! That makes sense, then. What are you doing on your day off?”
“I don’t have any plans. What about you? Any plans this week?”
“Just going to class.”
In one of those rare moments where my brain decides to capitalize on an opportunity without excessive overthinking, I asked, “Want to meet up for lunch on campus? What’s your Thursday like?”
“Sure! I have one class in the morning and one in the afternoon, so we can meet up between my classes! Noon at the Coffee House? Does that work?”
“Sounds great!” I said. And just like that, I had a lunch date with Lacey.
Thursday, November 11, was a cool but sunny day. I rode my bike to campus, and I saw American flags hanging from some houses because of the holiday. Someone had placed small flags in the ground around campus.
I parked my bike at the west end of the Coffee House building and went inside. I looked around and did not see Lacey, but I was a little early. As I started to walk around, looking for her, I heard someone say, “Greg!” It was a male voice, definitely not Lacey. I turned around and saw Seth Huang. I knew him from when I used to go to Jeromeville Christian Fellowship; he was two years behind me, so he was a senior this year.
“Hey,” I said, walking over to Seth. “How are you?”
“Pretty good! What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be working?”
“I’m off today, for Veterans Day.”
“Today’s a holiday?”
“Yes. I never knew why UJ doesn’t get it off.”
“Weird. So what brings you to campus?
“I’m meeting Lacey for lunch,” I explained confidently. I did not get many changes in my life to say that I had plans with a girl, and when I actually got to say something like this, it made me feel actually normal for once.
“Who?”
“Lacey Kilpatrick.”
“Oh,” Seth replied. “Well, enjoy your lunch! I’ll see you around!”
“You too! It was good seeing you!” Near the other end of the Coffee House, I found an empty table. I may not have been a student at UJ anymore, but I remembered from back when I was that open tables at the Coffee House could be hard to find this time of day, so I sat there, to save a spot. I continued scanning the room, hoping that I would be able to see Lacey when she got here. After a few minutes, I saw her walking past; she looked really cute today, wearing a light pink long sleeved shirt with jeans and flip-flops, and a backpack because she was just coming from class. I stood and waved, and she saw me and walked toward me.
“Hey, Greg!” she exclaimed, moving forward for a hug. I put my arms around her, feeling a little awkward with her head only coming up to my chin.
“Good to see you,” I replied.
We took turns getting up to buy food while the other stayed at the table to make sure no one would take our spot. I got a chicken burrito, and she got a sandwich.
“So what class did you have this morning?” I asked when we finally both sat back down with food. “How’d it go?”
“Human development. I have to write a paper this weekend.”
“That sounds tough. Good luck.”
“What all did you have to do to apply to the teacher certification program here?”
“There were a few prerequisite classes, and I had to take the Basic Education Skills Test. But find someone from your program and ask them, because the requirements for teaching elementary school might be different from secondary school. You’re going to do elementary, right?” I asked.
“Yeah.”
“What grade do you want to teach, if you get your choice?
“Probably like third or fourth. But if I find a school I really like, I don’t want to be too picky. I can always change grades later.”
“Right. I just got whatever classes they gave me. And hopefully someday I’ll be there long enough to get to pick my classes first.”
“How has school been going?”
“It’s rough. These kids aren’t very respectful, but I’m surviving. Did I tell you about the kid who I caught copying answers from the back of the book, and what he wrote?”
“No!” Lacey exclaimed, interested.
“The book has the answers to the odd-numbered problems in the back, so you can check your work. He copied the answers and didn’t show his work. But for one problem the back of the book said ‘answers may vary,’ and he actually wrote ‘answers may vary’ on his homework.”
“No way!”
“Not only that, but he tried to claim that he actually did the work, and he got ‘answers may vary’ when he did the problem. He didn’t even know what it meant.”
“Wow,” Lacey replied, laughing and shaking her head. “I wonder what crazy stuff my students will do?”
“I look forward to hearing it someday. What else has been going on with you?”
“Did you know my sister when she went here?”
Sometimes, I have been known to find myself in an embarrassing situation where I realize that there is something I should know about someone, but I do not, and I know the person well enough that it would feel awkward to ask about something so obvious. A few years ago, I was in a Bible study with a girl named Amy Kilpatrick, but she stopped coming mid-year. I remember one of the others in the group saying that she had a new guy in her life and wondering how that was going to work, since the guy was not a Christian. I felt a little irritated at the whole situation, because I had been told so many times that Christians should not be romantically involved with non-Christians, and now Amy was flouting this rule. Did she have busybodies in her life too, telling her she should not be dating a non-Christian, or were people like that unique to my life, despite the fact that I was not in fact dating anyone? After meeting Lacey, with the same last name, about a year ago, I had never actually asked her if she and Amy were related. Now that Lacey had mentioned having an older sister who went here, I assumed this was who she was talking about, so without further explanation, I just said, “Amy?”
“Yeah! She’s getting married! I’m gonna be the maid of honor!”
“Good for her,” I replied, not bothering to ask if Amy was still with that same non-Christian guy. “We were in the same Bible study one year, but I don’t think I’ve seen her since. Tell her I said hi and congratulations. When is the wedding? Have they picked a date yet?”
“July 22.”
“That’s good,” I said. “How is JCF this year? Still going to large group?”
“Yeah! It’s good! Janet had her baby!”
“I heard! That’s exciting!” I replied. Janet McAllen and her husband Dave were the adult staff of Jeromeville Christian Fellowship, and this was their first child. “My roommate Brody told me he went to the first large group of the year, when Janet was like eight months along, and how she kept saying things like, ‘We’re really expecting God to move this year. We’ve been praying about what he’s giving birth to in our fellowship, and we can’t wait to watch God deliver on his promises.’”
“Oh my gosh, that was so funny! Everyone was laughing so hard! You should come visit large group sometime! I know you’re not a student anymore, but I’m sure it’s fine to visit every once in a while, and everyone would like to see you!”
“I will!” I said. JCF was a student group, so I did not want to make that the major part of my life that it had been when I was a student. I needed to move on. However, I still had friends there who were still students, and Lacey’s specific invitation made the prospect of visiting in the future feel safer. “I can’t this week, though. I have a football game.”
“Football game?”
“I’m running the scoreboard for football games at my school.”
“Oh! That’s so cool! I was wondering, wait, Greg plays football?”
“No,” I laughed. “My football career is long over. It lasted for one day, in 1991. A bunch of my friends in high school said I was built like a football player, so I worked out with the football team all summer. I also did a lot of reading about football strategies, the history of football, what the different positions do, stuff like that, because I didn’t know a lot of the more complex details of how the game really worked. I didn’t want to look dumb. But after the first full day of practice, I knew I was in over my head physically. It was too much for me.”
“I never knew you tried football. You did your best.”
“Yeah. And once I was over the disappointment of not being able to make it, that experience helped me appreciate watching football more than I had before.”
“That’s good. Turning a negative into a positive.”
“Did you play any sports when you were younger?”
“I did track for part of high school. I was a middle-distance runner. I was never the best on the team, though.”
“That’s cool,” I said. “I was always a slow runner.”
Lacey and I continued talking for about an hour total, until it was time for her to go to her next class. I told her more stories about the students at work. I told her about the Dog Crap and Vince game. She told me about her classes, and caught me up on a few mutual friends from JCF who did not go to our church. When it was time for her to go to class, I asked if I could walk her there.
“Sure!” she said as she put her backpack back on. “It’s just across the quad, in Orton.”
We got up and walked diagonally southeast across the Quad toward Orton Hall, one of the large classroom buildings on campus. “It’s kind of weird being back here in the middle of a school day,” I observed. “It’s like, all of this looks familiar, but at the same time, it’s not my life anymore.”
“I get that. It happens when you get older, I guess. You grow up, and things change.”
“Yeah. But some things stay the same. Like these oak trees that have been here for decades. And Old North and Old South Halls,” I said, gesturing toward two buildings on our left. “The oldest buildings on campus are still here. But then there’s a new building behind them that wasn’t there before. That one just opened this year, right?”
“Yeah.” We crossed the street and arrived in front of Orton Hall, and Lacey said, “I need to get to my class, but it was really good hanging out!”
“Yes! We’ll have to do this again sometime!”
“Definitely!” Lacey gave me a hug and smiled.
“Have a great day! I’ll see you soon!”
“Bye, Greg!”
I waved as she went inside the building. Before I turned around, I noticed a rack of free copies of the Daily Colt next to the building. I grabbed one and walked back across the Quad. I had no plans today, I was in no hurry to get home, so I figured I would make the most of my return visit to campus. As I walked, I noticed students on bikes, remembering when that used to be me every day. I saw a couple sitting on the grass holding hands; that was never me, but I always wished it had been. I saw the Death Star building rising up ahead to the right and remembered the time I played Sardines there with Taylor Santiago and some others from our dorm. We all got so lost wandering around there trying to find Taylor’s hiding spot.
I sat for a while and read the Daily Colt, doing the crossword puzzle after I finished reading the campus news. Next, I walked into the campus store. Some things had been rearranged since the last time I was there. General books were still to the right, clothing to the left, and textbooks downstairs. I walked around the clothing area and grabbed a navy blue crew-neck sweatshirt with JEROMEVILLE embroidered on it in large gold letters and COLTS underneath, small and white. I also picked out a gray t-shirt with JEROMEVILLE in large letters, gold outlined in navy blue, forming an arch, and EST. 1905 smaller underneath. I bought a baseball cap with the school’s logo on it too, now that I was becoming a Hat Guy again. My first school merchandise as an alumnus. I paid for my purchases and went back to my bike.
I zigzagged southwest across campus, the same route I took every day freshman year when I lived in Building C. I passed by Building C and the other lettered buildings, where other, younger students were now making the same kinds of memories I made five years ago, meeting people who would become their lifelong friends. I continued south, toward the Arboretum where I had gone on so many bike rides over the years, riding through the comforting quiet of tall, soaring trees from around the world.
At the west end of the Arboretum, near the buildings of the School of Veterinary Medicine, I crossed over Highway 117 to the rural campus land used for agricultural research. I passed a flock of sheep and rows of grapevines on one side of the road, and stately oak trees on the other. I remembered the day freshman year when I first rode my bike here, discovering a peaceful, bucolic section of campus that was entirely new to me. My surroundings had hardly changed from what I remembered on that day.
I returned home by a different route than the one I had taken to campus. I would always have a connection to this beautiful campus, so full of memories, as a member of the Alumni Association, but my day-to-day life no longer revolved around it. There may come a day in the future when I would leave Jeromeville, and as I came back to visit this campus over the years, there would inevitably be changes. Buildings would be torn down or remodeled, and new buildings would be constructed, but some things would remain the same. For now, I still lived in Jeromeville, and I still had friends in school on this campus, one of whom I sincerely hoped would become more than that. She may have only been nineteen, but that did not seem to be getting in the way of anything so far.
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